By Eva Menovsky




Dear Amsterdam,


I think you know why I am writing this letter. I’m sorry I couldn’t do it face to face. It was just too painful to tell you when I left. We’ve been together for so many years but we have been fighting for a while, and I’ve been thinking. It’s time to go our separate ways.


Sure, we’ve had our good times. You’ve taught me how to ride a bicycle along your beautiful canals. We’ve lived in small but cozy houses. You gave me a home with an amazing family. We’ve danced together, painted each other and walked towards the sunset. You have taught me about love. We grew together, each year, until I was able to stand on my own. You’ve told me your wisdom, and I’ve learnt from that. We’ve seen the greatest art, done the craziest things, and met the sweetest people. 


But despite, the great memories, I’ve always felt something missing.


Your arrogance doesn’t stand me anymore. The way you seem to freeze time, appealed to me at first, but now that I’m moving forward, I feel like you are holding me back. Your magic always fades in the beginning of the morning. And even the night seems to be running in circles. I feel that ultimately we want to end up in different places and as I’m getting older, I want to find someone I’m compatible with in the longterm.


I guess, what I am trying to say is, I am just not in love anymore. 


And I would be lying to you, if I told you I’ve ever been. We’ve just never had that magic spark. I’ve been lying to myself that I am in love with you, that we will stay together for ever. But now that I’m being honest with myself, I realise I’ve never been.


I’m sorry to be so blunt, but don’t you wanna be in a relationship where you both feel the same way? So many people love you, but I am just not one of them, and it feels unfair to be leading you on. You deserve someone who loves you just as much.


Maybe we can still be friends?


I’ll miss you, Amsterdam. You were my first love and you will always be. 


Love, Eva

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