Exactly where I want to be. – By @shein_dean
By Dean Shein
Exactly where I want to be.
It’s a weird time. We just moved to Pop. It feels right. It has natural light. In a fitting kind of way, I feel like my second chapter of SCA has only just begun. After so long in that wonderfully wacky womb, a change feels liberating. I have no idea how Marc did almost a decade in there. I guess the beautiful minds inside allowed him to bear it.
I’m 3/4 through my entire SCA journey. And yet, I’m not feeling overwhelmed. I thought I had to know it all by July. But this is only just the beginning. Yes, I still can barley use Photoshop and Illustrator… But I am happy with my personal growth.
SCA is not designed to do twice. Within the space of one year, students are meant to be willing to march into hell, for a heavenly cause.
But I didn’t see it that way.
I didn’t just come here to get my book. I came here to be inspired. To have my mind opened. Unlocked. And I think that’s what I became addicted to. It was the first time I was ever exposed to ‘Improvisation’ and ‘Comedy.’ It was the first time that I left all my inhibitions at the door. I fell in love with pitching. Not just because I enjoyed presenting my idea to the room. But mainly because I got to act. Hold the room. Be me.
I’ll soon finally be ready for a job. The thought of leaving this place actually excites me. I just want to wake up in Hackney and go to work. And with just over 4 months to go, it’s vital that I start cherishing every single day that’s left. It’s important to think about the person I went into SCA as. And who’ll come out in July.
The bottom line is, I feel like I’m exactly where I want to be. I’m ready to enter the work force. Do I have it altogether? God no. I still struggle with washing my clothes and cleaning my room. But the way I go about my daily life has radically changed. My ears are always open. I’m analysing everything. I’m chatting to as many people as I can. As often as I can. Insights can come at any time, in any shape or form. I’ve also realised that if I show my work to someone, no matter who they are or what they do, I will be rewarded.
I thought I needed to have it all figured out. I now realise that it’s about constantly wanting to figure it out.
The pace of SCA rivals Sonic the Hedgehog. It’s important to step outside an observe yourself.
And yet, March is marching along. The business part of the course is now in session.
Looking at the position I now find myself in, I feel very grateful. Even though there are some things that I wish I could change, I am exactly where I want to be.