By Ben Conway

Yesterday I spoke with a Eunuch.

I had previously written a SCAB on thievery of words such as yaaaas, work, queen and slay which are emblazoned in glitter on the many GAP Kids and H+M crop tops; but as you can see by the beginning, I found something far more interesting to indulge you all in.The app Grindr doesn’t need much explaining. Pop culture has deemed it seedy, a place where men go to, you know? In a quick run down, I have had the app from my teenage years in seeking some sort of homosexual higher purpose, a pilgrimage of sorts. If you have an idea of a kink in your head I’ve probably spoken to someone who has it; and what I found even more exciting about this conversation is that Marc says to us ‘I cannot be shocked very easily’. We see NSFW and explicit content often, but this stuck out like a sore thumb on steroids.“The Eunuch Maker” is a man who runs a website in which he has documented his own, and others removal of their testicles and cocks. This is quite obviously a one time procedure for a man, I’m sure the website would be more popular if he could remove his apenditure several times.I would like to disclose that before you read the conversation between the Eunuch Maker and myself, let this have a secular impression on you. I may have found this man on Grindr, but take it as a standalone. Kinks are wide and ranging, this is body modification. Let it not impress on the entire gay community. In the words of many extreme television shows: do not try this at home.Ben = B // Eunuch Maker = EM.B: A eunuch is someone without cock and or balls, you want to castrate someone?!EM: YesEM: I like to castrate peopleB: What a hobbyEM: Can I do you?B: No lol, still interested, has anyone said yes?B: It’s obviously somewhat illegal and or something that should be done professionally?EM: Done 47 guys, removed 11 cocks so a few days yes :-)EM: But, I do it pro and good :-)B: Where does a hobby like this even begin?B: Some Dexter shit.EM: An interest I wanted done to meEM: Then other guys, to help.B: You have done it to yourself?B: Cock and balls?EM then sent six images, starting with a range of sex toys that go from the top of the image to the bottom as listed; an item called a Burdizzo or simply a castration device. From research it can also be used to take the penis off. Below that is a rather large strap on approximately 10 inches in size, a baton looking dildo and connected handcuffs for all four limbs.Past this were graphic images you can imagine, with the most shocking being what I presume to be the tip of his penis preserved with a blue band tied tight. The conversation resumes…EM: Yeah all off :-)B: WowB: I did quick googling, have you had media attention?B: Name Roger? … Wait being thick, your profile says your name lolEM: What?EM: No media coverage and my name is [blank].EM: Any pics of you?B: I have an Instagram linkEM: Any nudes?B: Don’t see the entire gain of sharing them? Not to be rudeB: Would want to chat moreEM: Oh no worries just asked u look CuteEM: Yes I wanna chatB: Do your parents or friends know etc.?B: Or is it a personal thing?EM: Friends know me yes, not I do otherB: InterestingB: I’m guessing it stems from sexual gratification? Or is that a presumption?EM: No I do it to help others achieve their goal or make fantasy go real and make dreams realB: I meant for you personallyEM: Me I always wanted to look like a ken doll down there with nothingAt this point I didn’t understand all terminology that EM was using and signed up to his website to understand more. EM is someone in the eunuch community who is a nullo, someone who wants to be smooth all over. They’re not transgender, more a submissive man, gay or straight. They can also classify as being asexual, asexuality is someone who does not experience sexual attraction. The conversation resumes…B: Like smooth?EM: Yes 100% smoothB: Yeah I can see that, is there a big community in the U.K.?EM: Yes a huge, gigantic one.B: What is huge giganticB: Hundreds?B: Thousands?EM: Tens of thousandsB: CrazyB: And you’ve met others in person?B: This is very 21 questions, but are the majority of men gay?EM: Not crazyEM: I’ve done 58 guysEM: It’s an all over thing gay and straightB: Only crazy because I only recently conceived it as a thought upon talking to youB: But yes it’s niche normality if the numbers are in tens of thousandsEM: Oh that’s because only recently I checked older info showing several 100 thousandsB: I hadn’t have thought past Game of Thrones of eunuchry so even more surprisingB: If that isn’t offensive!EM: lol lol, ok that’s ok.Drawing to the end of our conversation EM then sends two images of what he describes as ‘my work’. The image is a before and after shot of ‘his mate’ with all of his genitalia removed. Seeing the images side by side are incomprehensible, this would be the second eunuch I have seen and it wasn’t a small removal.B: Is that your before and after?EM: It’s a mateEM: My workB: What do you do with the flesh? You must have to give it to them or burn it?B: Must look suspect in a binEM: In my freezerEM: Or in alcoholEM then proceeds to send the final image of our conversation that evening, which my best guess determined it to be a frozen testicle in a petry dish.EM: lolB: You must have a freezer full of cocksEM: Only 3 cocks and 16 pairs of nutsB: Oh so is part of it keeping the apenditure after?EM: All are different.----------------------------I am in-between delusion and lack of shock. Having seen this first hand on my phone, apologies for the sake of not including explicit content, as this is just words to you. I keep thinking back to Tipping Point and Mavens. At the place where we think we want to turn away is where we should keep walking. This man would be an outcast, the witch of our 17th century England. He chose something that is not ‘normal’, yet I think I’ve learned to pursue when it seems most distant. Everything about the body modification community and what he has done to himself could have turned me away, but it was a worthwhile conversation to understand someone new.In the end, who are we to peg him down and make a judgment?